Betcha you never knew that...

[Alyssa]

I don't really know what to say, cause there's no help to give. Buuuuut. I'm sorry That's terrible and your right about everything you said. It's not fair. You were expecting something completely different, that present was a TRUE surprise.

People, especially parents, are so stupid sometimes. Most times. You are none of those things. And WE haven't given up on you. You have to try not to listen to them!!!

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

You are a wonderful person, who might not now what you want right now, but that's ok. Half the grown ups in the world don't know that. But you know what you like and what you don't like. You know what your looking for, even if it's not specific.

Last night my mom told me that if I was going to be "wandering the halls" during study hall (((because I told her ONCE that I had gone to my locker and back))) I should take another class. She's always wanting more. A better grade, a bigger ribbon, a better review. I'm never good enough, not EVER. She doesn't even know how hard I try. I'm already 2 credits and a math class ahead of half my grade. I get all A's and B's. I have never gotten in trouble. But nope. More, more, more. That's all she wants. Sometimes it feels like that's what the whole WORLD wants. Right?

But I guess I've figured that no matter how hard I try, I'm never gonna be good enough for everyone. Maybe not anyone. But that's ok. We just have to be good enough for yourself. Look at you. Ignore all other opinions. Just look at YOU and decide if your ok with yourself. No? Fix it! Change it! Your really the only one that can. But if you ARE. If you are alright. If you can't, don't want, push yourself anymore then don't. Otherwise your gonna be someone you DON'T want to be, which is exactly what this is about NOT doing.

Yes? Love you girl. Feel  better!

Betcha never knew that I love this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FV-HPOHu8mY

[pony-horse]

oh my goodness, that sucks rach. i cant believe it. like, i can see it from their side too - that they put all this money together and wanted you to be super happy; but still. it sounded like you didnt even get enough time to process the whole thing before they jumped to accusations. and i'm sorry that your birthday was pretty bad 

but aly's right, (and that was a magnificent speech, i must say). parents always want more and more, and i've never met ANYONE who was enough for their parents. and she's right - i DOUBT that i'll ever be good enough for anyone, except for the people who dont care how good i am, like lilia and ina and evelina. and that's us to you - me and aly, we dont give a buttcrack about how "good" you are. to us you're absolutly wonderful and amazing, and nobody has the right to tell you how to change. aly pretty much summed it up - you'll never be happy if you try to be who your parents or whoever want you to be - you have to be the way you want to be.

but theres not much i can say - i hope you feel better, and (as always), i'm praying for you

sorry aly, youtube is having some error thing is that just my computer?

bunkt we had fun yesterday, and evelina slept over we had a really good talk - we made tea, got these awesoem cinnamon grahm crackers, got blankets, and sat in my backyard

[Alyssa]

Exactly. You have FIND the people who love YOU. Not what you do, or your grades, or body, or anything....they love YOU. That's TOTALLY US.

Oh, thanks, Mary

Haha yeah it is. It's called "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World, if you wanna look it up somewhere else.

That sounds fun! I'm glad you got to talk.

Betcha never knew that I actually got done with Geometry pretty quick

[~*Rach*~]

I can see it from their side too. But still. Exactly Mary. They didn't give me time to think about it. They just went straight to accusing. Whatever. It's over.

Thanks guys. I guess you're right.

That sounds like a lot of fun Mary.

And that's great Alyssa.

Oh and I'm obsessed with that song. I've loved it for forever.

Betcha never knew that my mom and I talked not yesterday, but the day before and it was nice just talking for once to someone about how I feel. So things have gotten better.

[pony-horse]

i'm glad its gotten better

bunkt today me and daniel went to Lids (its a hat store ) and got these awesome gangsta hats with our names embriodered onto them, and they look SICK! i'll post a picture of mine later

[Alyssa]

I'm SO glad.

Haha that's AWESOME. I def. wanna see it

Betcha never knew that tomorrow Kaitlyn, Shelby, and Emily are coming over. I dunno what we're gonna do. But I'm sure we'll find somethin

[pony-horse]

well, hope you guys have fun

and i'll get a picture tomorrow

bunkt tomorrow some people from our church are getting baptized, and then theres going to be a church picnic cant wait

[Alyssa]

You seem to have those a lot. Lol but sounds fun

Betcha never knew that Kaitlyn called her brother today, and he was with Emily (((our old section leader))) and we got to talk to her and she said she's coming home next weekend and she'll get to see us march at the game!

[~*Rach*~]

That's awesome Mary! I can't wait to see them. And have fun at the picnic.

That's cool Alyssa.

Betcha never knew that I know which song on the piano I want to learn by myself next. I'm really excited to start it.

[Alyssa]

What is it called?

Betcha never knew that I can't wait until AWANA starts on Wednesday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CNoWXQlWu4&NR=1

LISTEN. I just discovered him today, and I'm obsessed. Especially with this song. He. Is. Amazing. And absolutely adorable. I love him. Haha

[pony-horse]

i's listening right noe i like it so far

sounds exciting aly

and which song is it ?

bunkt i slept over lilia's esterday, and we watched wuthering heights (my second time)... never has there been a more disturbing (in a good way) movie and todays registration, so i get to see my school friends. i'm actually not that excited, but whatever

[Alyssa]

I love it. It's awesome.

Well I'm glad you 2 had fun.

Betcha never knew that I think our giant group is finally getting organized for Homecoming. Go us!

[~*Rach*~]

I'm listening to him right now. I love it so far and you're right, he's completely adorable.

I'm glad you had fun too Mary. I'm actually going to read that book after I finish reading the one I currently am(Roses by Leila Meacham). I want to read the book and then see the movie. I never do it the other way around.

That's awesome Alyssa!

And it's this one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=so6ExplQlaY

It's so beautiful.

Betcha never knew that I had to read Antigone for english(it's a short play)and it was pretty...gruesome. Pretty good though.

[Alyssa]

Wow!!! This is SOOOO pretty. I *love* it. That's so cool that your gonna learn to play it. It's absolutely gorgeous, Rach you picked a good one. Good luck!!

Well that's good.

Betcha never knew that I might being going to the lake with Emily this weekend I hope so!! We went together a couple years ago, and it was like the best weekend of my life.

[~*Rach*~]

Thank you Alyssa. I'm really glad you like it.

I hope you get to go!

Betcha never knew that my dad and I are getting ready to buy concert tickets to the concert we go to every year. I'm very excited. We're hoping to get front row. He's out of town though so we're each doing it to see who can get the better seats. I'll tell you guys how it goes.